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Thursday, May 12, 2011

diagnostic

hi blog.

as you see, life has taken yet another different phase.

i am currently a 3 weeks and 4 days old student doing radiography now.

it was a pretty interesting course that not many would have thought to venture unless they did really badly in their a levels or they are really inspired to be it due to a stable job or passion for healthcare through this profession.

today i was just wondering, why am i studying so much sciences instead of the math which is the subject i love so much? in which i finally decided is because that i wanted to go into a health care sector which i find more fulfilling rather than the finance/ economical world. it was pretty crazy where half the lectures are physics related can be rather overwhelming for a non physics student like me, whereas biology only applied for anatomy and physiology and a level h2 bio can only help you to a certain extent on a molecular level and there's this whole thing on a macro level (the related topics much learn back then in secondary school). so yup, i am struggling.

i thought i had the motivation to study, but i am not just doing it i feel.

like after being overwhelmed so much in school, back home you just feel like sleeping.

and when i go out, i will start feeling guilty about time spent.

my time management and self discipline, where are you? ):

yes noted.

other than the studies,

the campus is not bad.. food is sub only.. not that fantastic. very much tempted to go the hawker outside but seems weird to and its quite a distance after all.

i have a nice circle of friends. my class consists of quite a number of muggers. which really frightens me. and i really wonder how can i be a top student then? where you see others studying really hard and joining a number of cca (a kind of pre-requisite for scholars to be.)

its quite demoralising.

i really hate the morning human jam on the way to school where there seems to be only one gate to school where everyone is packed in the tiny walkway and people seem to just saunter to school even where we are all left with 5mins to the start of lecture.

(i have just decided a new route and learning more routes now)

well enough of rambling ):

thats why you are called soliloque, just my inner thoughts spoken out here.

i remember i have a blog back then named for rants. lol. but the website closed down or something.

7 months past with joe, it has been quite a journey together isn't it?

hope it only gets better.

gotta chaoz.

ps. sometimes you really wish they stop saying whatever they keep saying. what if they are right? sigh. its like you know but you can't help it..